A friend who is much smarter than me told me once how foolish it is to mark sad anniversaries and it's something I've taken to heart.
Instead of thinking about and fixating on bad things that happened in the past today, I've tried to focus on the good things in my life, the better people here now that I love dearly. Those blessings are not acknowledged enough for all their great worth and it is good to have an opportunity to do so. Much better than obsessing on a hurtful thing that I should fucking let go of already.
That said, it's emotionally exhausting to actively not think of something. I know things take work and patience and this go around has been so much better than the last. I got through most of it. But by the end of the day, I feel pathetic and burned down, useful for nothing.
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