Tonight, I'm thankful for the red. I'm thankful for this blog, which as much as I abuse it, helps me think about things and reflect on my actions and feelings and remember things. I'm thankful for my support systems in this time of year that can be so hard and dark, especially when shit hits the fan like it did so utterly today. I'm thankful for my oversized Captain John Smith t-shirt, which is so comfortable, even if I am to be a mercenary.