Positive things

-smelling the weird lukewarm bagel stale carpet cut grass and mold bookpage old tree smell of my once-campus
-not thinking about people who don't deserve thinking about
-not getting something and deciding I didn't want it that bad anyway
-solar eclipses, equinox, and all my favorite kinds of chaos
-keeping it together generally
-no creepers thus far this week
-Aries rising
-a girl I like and know well enough to have traded clothes with is about to have a baby like tonight and she's been texting me through the contractions and I'm excited and terrified and jealous for her
-I bought myself a beer tonight in a bar as I worked the last hour of my day and tomorrow I'm gonna buy myself flowers (I'm a great boyfriend!)
-seeing old teachers and having them be glad to see me
-the coveted clean kitchen
-my favorite poet in the entire world reading tomorrow, and me, a little goon, getting to go see
-66 on Saturday
-I'm great at getting off
-I look good in wizard hats according to right now (see allowing yourself to be bummed for one hot second and then letting it go)
-sister hazel