I think whining about one's period is kinda lame. I mean, it's not a surprise: I've been having one since I was fourteen. I'd be a pretty shit woman if I didn't know what to do with that by now. And it's objectively not that bad. It's not an excuse to stop living my life or being productive or whatever.

But that said, keeping in mind those noble, holier-than-thou stated intentions: ohmygoshIamhavingtheworstPMSofmyLIFEthisweek. I am a brim-full glass of intense, weepy emotion. My heart is overflowing with an ocean of messy feeling and I'm really turned on.

Sometimes I find that I feel better if I tell myself the story of why I'm feeling the volatile way I'm feeling.

SO, why did your big, blue eyes fill with irrational tears at work TODAY, Jess?

- bought some dark chocolate to ease terrible pms symptoms but it fell onto my boobs on the way to my mouth and bounced onto the ground
-"The Trapeze Swinger" by Iron & Wine came on and it is like 10 minutes long and also contains the line "I heard from someone you're still pretty" which is a REALLY really sad thing to sing in a song
- miss Legends: oh all my pretty little swords I'll probably NEVER get to fight with again
- no actual reason; mascara malfunction
- the weather, clouds on the mountains
- found some chocolate smears on my chest after intense serious HR discussion with coworkers in which I needed them to take me really seriously
- commiserated with Chris about our ghosts and how getting close to people is such an excruciatingly painful risk but it's worth it oh god it's so worth it
- the NASA Dawn Mission's first person twitter account
- a picture I saw on facebook of a beautiful black woman protesting some neo-nazis
- a reunion
- my new moon horoscope saying that generousity is the best revenge
- a rush of sudden random affection for grocery store employees
- "Thank You" by Bombadil--I just want to say thank you for all the times that you stayed by my side oh boo hoo boo hoo why listen to any music when it's all so SAD
- composed this list, reminding myself of previous irrational feelings