I always come to this thing when I'm having a hard time, and right now, I'm having a hard time. I can't eat, I can't sleep. Everything in my life feels like it's falling apart, and I can't do anything right. I know it's all my own fault, but I keep screwing up. I feel so lonely; I need someone to talk to, but I can't talk about any of the things going on.

So, I'll write a little here.