I actually have a lot to say today because it's an important day (going to finally do my cave fire behind/under the waterfall) but I just remembered an anecdote from this week that I wanted to write down because it was funny and I want to remember it. 

I was over with my friend for dog date (Monday, I think?) and she sloshed her wine a little bit accidentally into the fire. I tipped a little of mine out and joked, "pour one out for our favorite daughter!" and she said "pour one out for our... wait, uuuhhhh... WHAT?" I had no idea what to even begin to tell her. Eventually I said "well, don't worry about it, it's kind of just a stupid elf thing..." which felt so absolutely and accidentally in-character as a thing Yan would say that I almost started laughing. Thank goodness for small, stupid, interior joys in this life of endless loss and suffering. At least I still amuse myself most of the time.