Had a nice time watering the yard today. It was so hot. I put on my favorite cutoffs and a navy blue beater and drank a beer and thought a lot of tomato thoughts. I guess this blog gets a little insufferable when I'm gardening so much, a litany of plants I love desperately and try to tend and fail at. Err.
Speaking of, though, I guess this blog is always probably a little insufferable in general... but I always wanted the immediacy of my actual feelings instead of something polished up and interesting. I suppose up close, lots of people are a little gross. I think I'm getting too old to pretend to be cool anymore, at least especially in my own secret little corners. (Things I learned this week I'm also getting too old for: getting hit on in bars, college drama.)
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That said, I'm looking forward to some self-imposed exile this weekend. I'm also hawking some wares to earn tomato cage cash if that helps reckon my headspace.
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Sir Christopher Lee died. I always think it's a little silly to mourn over people you don't know who appeared in movies when there are plenty of every day tragedies. Still, he was my favorite, favorite, favorite actor for most of my life. It was sort of a dumb thing when I was younger. One time, my best friend in high school went over to England on a trip, and she and her English boyfriend ran into him at some kind of film premiere thing, since her boyfriend had some kind of family connection in the industry. They said something like "We have to tell you!!!! Our friend (My name) lives over in America and she thinks you're just amazing and has the biggest crush on you!!!!" And he said like "What? Uh, thank you...?"
And briefly after they called me international, screaming.
It seems like a pretty big That Happened, but I've thought of it since. Wugh, he had knighthood, how undignified.
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It's hard to know what to do sometimes. I think I need to learn something about stillness and calm.
Headspace.com = stillness and calm. it's pretty impressively centering.
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