But I could never be so mad to shake you by your shoulders screaming: you coward, you hummingbird

Spell to Face Reality with Some Valor

Get your black dog. Run breakneck through the melting snow and close stickwoods. The dog will usually follow; make sure it's at least a moderately good dog. Let the run hurt. Don't stop for anything, and when you scare up turkey together, plummeting like twin meteors straight down a hill, let them explode around you. Feel the violence clatter in their feathers and the displacement of air when their absence rushes in.

Spell for Cures

Late at night, push open the window in your teenage bedroom. (If you no longer have access to your adolescence, any bedroom you've acted like a teenager in will do.) Listen to the rising and dropping voices of the coyotes, their little yips, songs, and silences. Fill up on glory and cold and knowing and fear, and then, exhale.

Spell for Partials

Admit you want it. It takes vulnerability. To ask, to express any kind of want is to invite loss, lack, rejection. You have to say it out loud. You have to talk to it.

Otherwise, a good start is to look at the ground. The earth shows where it has been touched by water.

Spell to Get Salamanders, Transformation
It's easy; this is the part of the world with the largest salamander biodiversity. Turn over dead leaves. It's not as if you haven't lived this day before.